Challenging yourself is difficult without the aid of othera. Today as I walked 23k steps with little sleep and as a background having had another 20k steps plus standing, jumpinh and partying at a concert.
When I was walking today I recalled rhat I probably hadnt had so tiring feeling in my feet since I was in the army.
Conclusion: we want to stay in the comfort zone so bad.
I remember when we were marching, the lietuants in army used to come up every once in a while and ask how we are feeling. Of course they were observing as well our both physical and mental condition. I was about twenty years old then. For myself I didnt have such capacity, I was too impatient.
In the present moment I have got a bit further because I am able to observe objectively my thoughts and emotions as well to have kind attitude towards both skillful and unskillful thoights and emotions.
The time between these two points is ten years.
To attempt to describe life back and now, it seems I am growing more conxsious with both experience and practice.
The big learning thought: it’s hard to challenge oneself too much as long as it is if its progressive and there is sufficient rest and knowledge of imagined limits.