I had a realization, that there is no really any other moment to be than the present moment.
Before I used to feel unreal if something went well, I felt that I had not had much to do with the results.
When things did not go well, I couldn’t cope with it really well. I felt responsible so I worked a lot to just be average.
Most of my days I’ve been stuck somewhere in the average days. Then there are few days I’ve ascended the mediocrity to a higher level. Then there are also days when I’ve been depressed at the lowest lows.
While there probably always will be days to all these directions, what I realized today is simple: present moment is as good as life gets, so better find a way to cope with it. And since it is the best there is, then it would make a sense to make use of it.