As I’ve been taking baby steps towards becoming something more like the great role models I admire, I’ve also noticed in my thinking some quite challenging aspects. For example: it has become really difficult for me to understand the ‘decadent pleasures and behaviors’ of smoking, alcohol etc.
I label these as decadent, because I feel like these are habits that take me further from my goals rather than closer.
My attitude is quite harsh, probably exactly because it has been only some years since I myself have been living with such habits: I am nobody to judge, yet my mind is quick to do so.
My guess it’s a kind of defense mechanism for myself to keep the distance, because now I actually have the experience through which I can determine and guess what will take me forward and what will hold me back.
That which has come through hard work, is a lot appreciated and less likely wanted to be given away freely. Or to use another metaphor, same would go with money “easy come, easy go.”
Only in this case its mostly about the wealth of wisdom acquired, and more importantly the understanding that in order to be able to use that wisdom, the life is about choices every moment. Even after the choices what matters, is what we do after those choices. I’ve made my choice and continue living to according to that.
Life is very limited, and once I understood that, for the very least even though I am not hundred percent sure what I want to do, there are many paths that I know for sure are not for me.
A lot of what my being is, mostly trying to reach something higher.
“Stop settling for what’s good enough and start creating art that matters.” – Seth Godin, Linchpin
I like the way Seth puts it. We all have art in ourselves in some form and we can create something that matters for this world. The idea to create something resonates so deep, that I want to immerse myself in that act of creation rather than to the passivity.