Today I knew that my emotional state wasn’t so well founded when I found myself blaming on the external factors quickly and surely. After quickly realizing this I tried to quickly find a more skillful way: hey I must’ve done something wrong… When that realization didn’t exactly make me feel much better, however hopefully it did contain a bit of my newly found negativity.
What had gotten into myself? Honestly, we all have bad moments, especially when we are tired and burdened. Later on I noticed that of course the external work pressures, stress and worry were eating my emotional stability. Upon realizing this allowed me again to accept that this can happen and now I am feeling responsible over the results.
For a moment I felt the urge to just take full responsibility and do everything myself, but such solutions cannot be scaled over a lifetime and the limit to my own actions is so limited. So instead, I decided to address the situation and ask for help. Acknowledging our human limitations feels liberating and energy creating force, with this I certainly feel negative worry turned into a positive energy to take action that doesn’t crush any one person.
Negative emotional experience can make our thinking really narrow and unsustainable. That’s not the way thought. We should always take effort in the way that allows sustainable growth and positive energy.
To do this, we need to be kind for others and ourselves. With a little bit of kindness we can answer we can shrink away the worry and negativity.
We always have a choice.
Remember the tale of the two wolves:
An old Cherokee is teaching his grandson about life. “A fight is going on inside me,” he said to the boy.
“It is a terrible fight and it is between two wolves. One is evil – he is anger, envy, sorrow, regret, greed, arrogance, self-pity, guilt, resentment, inferiority, lies, false pride, superiority, and ego.” He continued, “The other is good – he is joy, peace, love, hope, serenity, humility, kindness, benevolence, empathy, generosity, truth, compassion, and faith. The same fight is going on inside you – and inside every other person, too.”
The grandson thought about it for a minute and then asked his grandfather, “Which wolf will win?”
The old Cherokee simply replied, “The one you feed.”